Thursday, August 7, 2008

A New Lane

Time to say Good Bye.. literally!

" It's just a phase " I convince myself. Everythings appearing hazy.
Not sure where life's heading.

I felt the same way 5 years back, when i passed out of High School, with a challenge lying ahead of me.Had a million thoughts running in my head. The difficulty of parting with friends who I've spent my whole life with.Choosing the right stream of education.

At that point , an Under Graduate Course(Engineering) & scoring Good grades seemed like the perfect ending to the story.So I accepted the challenge and went on to study ENGINEERING.One hell of a task it was !! lol.
Today I'm a First Class B.E Graduate(Feels good and a lil funny typing that out...hehe).Just got my degree certificate by courier few days back(One year after i passed my engineering).Mumbai University Zindabad !

What could really be better than making your parents happy & proud?? I really dont know.How I went about achieving my goal(Clearing Engineering) back then is a story of it's own. If you've ever noticed, right when u achieve your goal or target, before you could even relish your success, there seems to be a bigger Goal out there lying in front of you.Life and it's ways.

Today I again stand in a similar situation the only difference being the change in characters and the scenario. I've resigned from "Collabera Solutions",Bangalore[My first job post Engineering] . It's been a wonderful experience working in this company. I've learnt a great deal through my tenure of 1 YEAR and a few days. More than my whole experience of working with Collabera, I've met & worked with some great people. Played some entertaining flash games[Blast Billiards b)Bow&Arrow hehe....]
3 o clock coffee n Blast billiards ahhhh.Tried all kinda of proxy servers to get access to whatever we wanted.And even learnt how to enable your supposedly permanently blocked USB port.smirk smirk:>.
Made some Good friends in such a short span of time. In a year's time we bonded so bloody well.Appu,Shady,Bob,Nandu,Swat. " U in???" ;).But again Life's got other plans for you.

CAUTION: Ahead there may be no flow in what I'm typing whatsover.

With every passing phase of my life there has been something that I've learnt. Something very simple,very basic & very important.Today im telling this loud & clear to myself " Emotions could be your biggest enemy ".

Got a few hours more in Bombay. Niharika's leaving tommorrow and so am I. Two different paths.Life's so very depressing. She's busy with her last minute packing,paper work etc etc etc. Got very less time with her before she leaves. It feels different. So bloody Different.
Nachos with cheese.Veg Sizzler.Not a good feeling hun.

GOOD LUCK to all of you!

The big Question is " What Next??"
Me : 09 Aug BOM-DXB Emirates EK-501 04 30 AM
&
Nik : 09 Aug BOM-Hong Kong-LA Cathay 03 00 AM

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Moody me..MOMO's hut

I know this song's unlike me but I just feel like it @ this moment :)

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and greeen
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

All I waNt is you, will you be my briDe
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is yoU, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a river in the mountains tall,
The rumble of your water would be my call.
If you were the winter, I know I'd be the snow
Just as long as you were with me, when the cold winds blow.

All I waNt is you, will you be my briDe
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is yoU, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a wink, I'd be a nod
If you were a seed, well I'd be a pod.
If you were the floor, I'd wanna be the rug
And if you were a kiss, I know I'd be a hug

All I waNt is you, will you be my briDe
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is yoU, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were the wood, I'd be the fire.
If you were the love, I'd be the desire.
If you were a castle, I'd be your moat,
And if you were an ocean, I'd learn to float.

All I waNt is you, will you be my briDe
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is yoU, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

I'm leaving work early today.I cant sit here and sleep. I respect the organization rules.
Cheers!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Martial Matters 1.1 (Featuring Factor-' i ' )

Itz been some time,boy...since i've been feeling good bout the shit thtz been happening in my life.Im @ work now,all charged up unlike the whole damn week.
Yesterday, undoubtedly iz the "Day of the month" for me. Had a great kickboxing class. Itz been a rough week for me (@ kickboxing n dealing with factor-' i '). Lots of body pain.Wrist,elbow , knee everythinz hurting.I'll come back to what happened yesterday in a while.
So ya,first class of the week.
Tuesday : Bob's all weak n not well...so i myself dint feel like going to class."JOSH" factor'z been at itz all time loww.Anyway, still after much thought,i make it for the jujitsu class(late tho)...therz this nice chic,cute n all with some other guy filming our class.I figured out later they were making a documentary on "KickBoxing & other martial arts" for some new channel,so it'll be aired on TV sometime soon. I go ahead, get into my workout clothes...do a lil stretches...everyonez too busy throwin each other all over the class.I join in practice a few throws & a few locks.And then itz time for some Sparring in jujitsu.Everyones at it.
Jujitsu sparring is a lot of fun.There's no kicking/punching involved purely like wrestling.To be more precise similar to Sumo Wrestling. So i had a nice 1 minute round with Atif (a colleague & gud friend of mine).This huge fuck gets me off my feet in like 20 secs.But i still got my arms wrapped around his neck not letting it go whatsover.We fall on the mat.My arms locked on his neck & i got my one leg over his back.He still seemed to be in a much more dominating position.He could easily tap me out.But no good.No techniques tht he could think of to tap me out.1 minute's up.Good feel.:)
Now a lil more charged up for the kickboxing class(dealing with factor-' i ' all this while).
Kickboxing class was extremely rigorous.Practiced lots of combos with lots of "josh" or you could say "intent"...hehe..right Ashwin?Very good class i must say. Tht cute chic'z happy with all the filming.Me & factor ' i ' happy.

Next day body's aching.Holy shit!!My butt,quad,wrists ...itz all hurting...knee's swollen up.

Ashwin's reaction to my body ache(in this peculiar tone) :"Jujitsu classes can get extremely exhausting if you practice it the right way.Good Good!"
Fuck nooooo,ashwin...bad badd...Im not enjoying this pain one bit...
Ashwin's got this famous quote:"Pain is weakness leaving the Body"...which is the only thing i can think of every time i experience pain on flexing any muscle...infact at this point of time i think pain is more like weakness in the body ...hehe...yeah?

Wednesday: Im all waiting to spar.But im not totally fit or even feeling good bout myself to spar.
But i had this desperation deep inside me to spar.I dont think it was a smart decision to actually get in & spar. If any of your body part's not doing too well,DONT stress tht part.Give it rest.Tht wud be the biggest favor you cud do to your body.
Anyways, had a short stint with Nitin.He's this fckn guy who's just waiting to show ppl how strong he is,full of energy.He is strong.But heyy c'mon you can just see all the ego in him while he's fighting.That doesnt make a good fighter.Everyone in this whole wide world surely does have ego(even if some u dnt fckn admit it). For a matter of fact,I think I have this "HUGEE muthafckn " ego. Nik, I see you givin me dat wicked smile while u reading this .Hun,you can prolly write a book bout my ego,eh?

So,we have an OK fight.But i really wasnt able to put even my 50% into it.I swear to god,i felt really bad bout not being able to stand there happily & fight.I wuz just present there physically.Fighting totally half heartedly.Gloves are off after 1 round & so was my mood.Right Elbow's still givin me some problem.I didnt really show my dissapointment.I wished i was fit enough to fight.But yeah again, Factor-' i ' figured out my dissapointment.Hmmm.Impressive.

Now comes the best part of the week. Yesterday i.e Thursday , Im kinda sad bout the whole thing that itz prolly gonna be my last kickboxing class.Yeah that's right,I may be shifting my base from Bangalore soon.Not sure where to & when. Im kinda attached to this city at this moment. Just 4 months more in Bangalore, mann....4 months that's all that i ask for.I promise I wouldnt ask for anything more. As usual,Late for jujitsu class.50 quick push ups. I watch Ashwin closely demonstrate some new moves.Atif's watchin carefully.Indu gives me the broadest smile.Wow! I go in practice the last few throws with Indu. "SCRATCH SCRATCH".lol.

Not many ppl turn up for the kickboxing class.Most of them injured,some of them not well.Run's cancelled. We take it eazy throughout. We practiced a lot of meditation towards the end.We tried to feel & take control over our "Chi". ‘Chi’ is the word the Chinese use for energy, the natural life force energy, needed to sustain all life.
Then comes the interesting part, Ashwin brings a few nice big Brick's.He wanted to show us how mental power cud give us so much energy tht we cud break tht brick with maintaing just a 1 inch distance between our hand and the brick.Itz all in the mind,boy.Ashwin looks at it fr 10 secs & just breaks it in a whiff. Whoaaaaa!

Now everyone's tryin one by one.Suraj tried coupla times.No luck.Lotta them tried,no luck.Then it was my turn & boy how much i wanted to break this.I could clearly visualise it..getting thru this thick damn brick...i can see it.I close my eyes & i can see myself break this n i go "BAM".Nope not happening.Again n again.Fck wuz i irritated or what!!!

Atif impressed me a lot this class.He went right after me n i cud see him concentrating.He went like "BAM" n the brick's broken.Good one, dude!Suraj,gives it a try once more & he gets it too.Yo wht tha fcks wrong with me.I aint getting it, but heyy i can see it break for god's sake.
I kept telling Indu tht im gonna break tht brick.She kept thinkin im this crazy guy & she blamed it on me being a Leo.Class's over.Everyone's leaving.

I just cudnt resist myself from tryin once more.I ask Indu to hang on,i'ma try again just once more.She' smiling and nods her head (sign of approval) as if she granted me permission.
I look around n get hold of these 3 bricks.Place 2 of them parallel to each other & position 1 over them horizontally.Indu walks in & stands right beside me.I close my eyes one last time.I look right in the middle of the brick.Position my hand 1 inch from the brick....& i go "BAM"...Brick's split into 2 halves.Fckkkkkkk.Ohh godd i cant even explain the feeling.This adrenalin rush pumps through my body.Outta the world feel.Ashwin supposedly was watchin me from his car.
Never knew One brick could make me feel soo damn good.
So gurl,what'dya think now bout me being the super confident Leo? hehehe....no no dont you even think im bragging....but heyy i had to break it,at least try to...n u cud see it in ma eyes...

My friend,next time any of you facing some kinda mood swings :
1.Meditate for 15 mins.
2.Get control of your Chi.
3.Get some bricks & go "BAM" "BAM" "BAM".

Time to get going,boy. Gotta hit some club tonite. Be a good boy & NO fighting!

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Martial Matters

Fighting is an art. Kick-Boxing is an martial art:>

Itz been about 2 months since I've joined these Kick Boxing classes,itz called "ShootFighter's Inc." I train 3 days a week.We workout 2 days(alternate) which includes Running,rolling over,push ups,bouncing crosses,front kicks,hook kicks, jabs,cross's,crunches & various ab exercises etc. which is important for building endurance.Techniques are taught on the 3rd day.We train in a pattern where we are working on improving our stamina and at the same time learning different techniques of fighting.

Yesterday I had a great session of boxing.Ashwin(my trainer) shouts out "All of you with your boxing gloves,come to one side of the class".And there I was with my wrist wraps on and pulling over my right hand gloves.I've been eagerly waiting from Day 1 to actually get in and spar,to know what it feels like to beat & get beaten consciously. It'z been some time, boy!

Ashwin points out at me and Shimroth."You guys go first".Not sure whether he noticed the natural excitement in me to get in and fight. So we start off.

First fight of the evening.Varun(me) & Shimroth.

Ashwin starts the stop watch.I was pretty sure tht itz gonna be a 1 minute stint.I Jab,cross,jab cross...put my guard up...Shimroth throws a couple of punches.We're fighting.Jab,cross,jab,cross,duck, jab,cross.By now it'z been bout a minute.I had no idea how long he wanted us to fight.Ashwin still watchin the stop watch & simulataneously commenting on each of our moves.Ashwin shouts"1 n half mins to go.GO ON.Don't stop.Don't STOP".tik tik tik.seconds are ticking.TIRED.I openly claimed that im kinda drained out after bout 1.5-2 mins of the fight.While i was sayin it out loud,I cud see that Shimroth's(quiet) just trying to get hold of his breath.Pure intention of surviving.He was equally tired.Ashwin in that 'full haraami' tone wanting to see something interesting shouts"Shimroth, he's tired.Knock him out!".Arghh.Shimroth throws his punches all on my guard,gettin a few on my head, tryin to follow Ashwin's instruction.I 'm thinkin in ma head "Neither Shimroth nor Ashwin know's how drained out I am,".I surely was tired.Besides,being the first fight of the evening,it was mine & Shimz first fight too.So now i hear he's askin Shim to try knockin me out.Both of us maintaining strong guards.That's when i put all my power and throw a jab, cross, jab, hook on shimrit's face n his head,back with my guard up.Shimroth gives a nice cross punch on my cheek too, despite my guard.Nice punch bro.FIGHT'S over.GOOD Fight.Gave a hug to Shimz.I was literally surprised that a 3min fight'd get that tiring.

(Conversation after the fight:me,Indu & Bob)
Me to Indu: Stamina's the key ! Fckin tiring.

Bob: It's smokin bob.We gotta stop smokin.(smiles)

Me: Stamina's the key ! Fckin tiring man.

Bob & Indu were the next to fight.

Me & Bob strt givin that lil speech to Indu that it'z kinda hard to hit a girl.Indu showin no signs of agreeing to that one.Indu lookin like a true warrior wanting to beat this guy & prove us wrong.
Bob played it easy through out the fight knowing that he can dominate if he wanted to.Burstin out a few times with his punches.
Indu, good fight gurl:).You got these good jabs & cross's.You sure seemed exhausted at the end of it ,yet you never seemed to give up & gave it your best shot which is very important.

I personally feel that it's unfair to make a girl & guy fight.Im not being a male chauvinist here. It's just that it doesnt work tht way.You can't go out n out n knock out a girl n feel proud about it or even good about it. Im not even sayin that women are weaker. It's just certain principles.Something that i've been taught since my early days.

ACHIEVEMENT:
1. We(me n Shimz) lasted the whole 3 mins.
2. Voted the "Best fight of the evening".

LESSON LEARNT:
1 .Work on your Stamina. Stamina's the key to last a fight.
2. Keep your guard up, whatsover!KEEP YOUR GUARD UP!
3. Switch to Ultra Milds asap. :D

Guys,Wanna Scratch ur ba!!$ during a fight? Guard's Up n scratch(Not sure how u do that).
Very very important.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Rain God.I am.

Meaning of Varun - God of Rain. Simple & Straight. I thought.

It all started over a bet at lunch yesterday. We(me,shady,bob & nandu) were busy eating and catching up with the shit that's been happening in each other's life. I had a wicked weekend. Adil, my holmie,had come down from Bombay to Bangalore(that's where i'm currently located). Drinkin rollin smokin & partyin 3 days non stop. Most importantly we were @ the right place @ the right time with the right Drink. Hehehe.MEXICO MEXICO.lmao.Aadil truly had a nice vacation. All eased out n shit.Kept blowin out each an every penny he had on him. He spent every buck like it was a promise he made to his parents that he'd make sure he spends it all.I wud have been very happy if his promise ended there.But his promise included that he'd make me spend as much as he did.I kept wondering how much does this guy make a month! I kept reminding him "You A'$$'HOLE i dont make as much money as you do neither do i work as much you do". Aadil works like an Auto responder to comments of that sort "Pleeeease dude.C'mon yaar.I've come from Bombay yaaaar.Pleeeease yaar".And the next thing, I remember is payin 500 buckz for an entry(no cover, beta) to a club that i usually hop in for free(sure i was drunk). So towards the end of his trip, i could feel the pinch while grabbing a Twix at Spar or the rick we took instead of a 5 min walk.Hahahaha tht bitch didn't even leave on the evening tht he was supposed to. He thought losin out on the money of the tkt wuz worth it! Totally stoned outta his head. Anyway he left the next morning not givin a fck bout the consequences at work. Personally, i think he's a crackhead for doin somethin of that sort.Anyway bro, i know why you did it! SHIT happens ; )

Weekend Outcome : I'm BROKE!Sick on monday. Totally outta sleep. Still hung over with the thoughts of the weekend and the funny incidents that kept happening throughout the stretch.

Anyway,So we were havin lunch & i start of askin bob what's the meaning of his name? Bob means Bob. And Bob's real name reads Sanjay. I dont remember what the meaning of his name was right now,purely cause the next 3 hours we spent arguing over what the exact meaning of my name was.

Now, to me, my name is nothing more than an identity.Something that my parents have decided to keep for me for some good reason I guess. So if I had to cross check what my name meant,"Google" wud be the easiest way I'd get an answer to it.For 200 buckz, an ISD call didn't make much sense to me.All the links provided by Google proved me right .I really had no clue that Hindu Mythology would come into the picture. But Hindu mythology had a few controversial statements.So bob & nandu stuck to their belief & the mythology. At the end of it, close to 2 working hours(supposedly) was killed:) which is a good thing(achievement) for all of us minus nandu.

How would I even have the slightest idea that the meaning of my "OWN NAME" would decide whether "I" win/lose 200 buckz! Too bored to type what happened ahead.Maybe sometime later.Naaaah .Stop closing that window.Kiddin.ezzzy.

At the end of it I dint win/lose the bet. No one did.

End Result : Meaning of Varun - God of Rain,Sea & Water.All of us still friends.